i was just so depressed of myself, thinking why am i so incomprehensible. i can't cope anything just in a snap of seconds, or maybe i am just unnaturally dyslexic. i refuse to learn, my heart is closed. hypothetically. please God, show me the way. the better way to study and get things more clearer. and faster. i want this thing to end so badly. come on, i want this to end. i will somehow, keep on trying to not humiliate myself. i will.