phases de la lune

So as I promised to give more updates during the whole time of my absentees, I was actually been inattentively preoccupied with paper works and assignments that needed to be done. From tutorials to presentation to drawing to other infuriating works, blergh I could be so dead of overtiredness. One of the worst case Im dealing now is that I have 3 residual abundant trigonometry tutorial works that put me in an immovable jammed that I cant go on due to my lack of explicable understanding in that course. I wouldn't blame myself for it but I would blame the new lecturer that "fortunately" find an exciting comfortable way of talking to himself throughout his lectures.

As I were saying, my scarcity of period makes me having no time to update my blog. Eventhough, the urge I had to fling my oblinging dancing little fingers to click all those tuneful musical and harmoniously mellow of my keyboard sound is indeed elevated but again, the busy-ness once again won over my spare of time. So these are some pictures of me and my friends went exploring the more narrow edges of kuala lumpur during weekends.

So, Im glad Syafiq called me a big eater but.. is just that I sometimes couldn't finished my foods so whats the point. I've run through so many places, tasted so many palatable foods, been to shops to drop and more! And photoshoped pictures are now ready to be serve! Enjoy!

bukit bintang

our college

dayang / mei / mel

pang?

bistro delafrance's dessert can put me to sleep as I wandrously floating up in the air of a heavenly paradising tasty food

Syafi-eee-q

sunway pyramid

pavillion

enjoying the wind much boy? mhm
me / yan / jay / dayang / jacky

me / jay / dayang / jacky / yan

bangsar

last words

dayang, here are my few last words for you. thanks for being such an amazing crazy floppy ears for me. thanks for lending me some of your words of acumen to pertain them in my ever so fastidious life. thanks for all those inevitable moments we had together as if like we've known each other for years. thanks for making all those moments became such an impact to me as if like celebrating someone's birthday everyday, not even a single second turned wasted into unexploited reminiscences but instead cherished the moments with haunting and extrodinary contented time together with others. thanks for being such an amazing supporter, literally or figuratively. i missed you with all the laughter we had together. i missed the arguments we had over a paddy matter. those random adventurous minutes are revoltingly and achingly hard to forget especially you make it more contented. the advices, the talks, the reviews, the secrets are by a hair's breadth abscond a beautiful brunt on me, listening to your voice were like a singing sensation to me. as bad as it sounded, i wont hesitate to say that your presence is a must but now taking back in reality, we cant choose, we must accept. dealing with another seperation gives me knotty and difficulties facing on my oh dear life. your absence is like an awkwardness in my surrounding as if having light trails passed by but the lights are unbearable to see that you can only see a cold blurry images. which gives me back to my sense to be who you are, no matter how people would treated you because due to your over flowing love to me and others. but what's done is no longer reversible. your laughter will always be the sweetest memories. thanks for everything. sorry for anything. i missed you.

xo, fendi

talking birds

love

me
amzar

wani

timmy
sirhan

afiq

fatin

us

The small, brave act of cooperating with another person, of choosing trust over cynicism, generosity over selfishness, makes the brain light up quiet joy.-Anon

new roooomm-uuhh

tutorial squared

i cannot explain

A & W

due to the exceedingly overwhelming of desperation, instead of going to the library, we decided to plan out to study off-campus to somewhere. somewhere as long as it is not in the college! so pangiran's got an idea to study in.....A & W, couldnt be anyway better than that place. iv been dreaming from all those wasted years after a&w officially closed for good back in sabah. but now worry no more cz a&w shall be a place to-go if i have nothing left to be done except paper-works. AND most importantly, although not everyone of us could join but it's still fun & & & delightful! For my tongue to slowly savor each second of indulgence in these motherfuckers would be possible now due to the availability of the restaurant found here in kl. so, now i will not leave only to my eyes to devour them as i can eat them anytime i want! yummy!

the ice-cream is paradising!

an attempt to get pangiran's shot once again failed as he is one slick guy when it comes about photographing himself. he hates his photo to be taken & now i know what i will love to do the most!...

...but holy cow! his dirty little secrets are REVEALED!

another camwhore hater, dayang! attempting to take her photos alone is hard!

...but due to my professionalism of persuading her, HER PHOTO!

last but not least! camwhores finally! VIVIENE & SYAFIQ

..then we're off to Amcorp Mall which was closed so we went back using lrt and the rest is history. xo

timmy turner or timmy stunner

timmy & fatin! (che pam)

i wana let everyone know that she's our timmy turner! harhar

memel

SYAFIQ . LERA DE ELFIRA. MEMEL

going to and always be missed dear little memel that's going to Sunway College soon to further her foundation year for one and half year in an accounting course. after that, she'll be flying all the way to New Zealand to study there taking her bachelor degree course. though its only been few weeks we've known each other but fun to know you mel! xo

oh..

i missed you so effing much!

sunday morning fux

baby you're my hot tamale!

idk how times can camouflage itself from being seen by our naked eyes but it is sure fast. i was relieved that i have not much class compared to my friends in different courses let alone now i have less works to do. fun no more cause now im getting bored and tired of my course as there is a class on Saturday. it is architectural drawing class.

yesterday as our class started, we've been given a task to do a sketch about linear or rectilinear lines. pretty excited when i have all this nice ideas in my head and more importantly i got to express them through my drafting. not until, the part when i have to start sketching. everything, let me repeat EVERYTHING went wrong. actually we have to make four different pieces in an a4 paper & the sketches should be interconnecting with each other and we were only allowed to use ball pens or art pens or pencils to do the sketch. but from the composition, to the tone of the color, to the concept of my original ideas, and everything including making that sketch make sense, screwed off. my friends were having difficulties too as they weren't able to spurt their ideas into drawing but mine is different. totally diverse. iv been thinking that am i loosing my ability to draw? or it is just i was too hungry at that time because i didn't have a proper breakfast? what is it!

presentinggggggggggggg, pangiran & saadan! :B

turned around and see the sky

introducing.. the people! sirAFIQamzahTIMMYfatinWANI :B this is lav yaw

linears

so ive lost counted the days iv been here in pasum. waiting with more days to come as time killed with mawkish and maudlin feelings all mixed up together like well balanced dietary salad. im on my way to read all the books iv bought as references, atleast thats what i told to myself everytime i feel guilty to my own self as iv been using all my time with absolute shits. somewhat deep within my mind now is asking a question, will i ever be contemplate to my study as i used to be before or will all this ticklish and problematic disturbance will caught my way on to the supposed approach i should go.

i found chemistry is interesting, my way of prejudicing the course had narrowed my pointless interpretation to a better phase. alhamdulillah. so far it still dont force me to pressurizing myself with strain.

but i found environmental studies quite hard, more tricky or can i say futile or inane because it kept on going in the same circles of topic as it discussed how earth sustain its life or whatsoever. total boredom much. and to put another reason, i couldnt even understand what the lecturer said or thought us about it as she struggle herself to pronounce the words correctly. seriously, i dont understand what she said.

maths is fun! as i expected it would be amaze-balls as i learned more about it. cant wait to explore deeper!

as the rest of the courses, they're still not up to my scrutiny as others dont bore me nor excites me.

i just feel like eating cake right now. but then its not fun eating cake all alone

be flying back sabah on friday next week! cant wait (:

blame game

killing the precious time as class actually started at 10 not 8. fcuk

when you left me in total dominance

this is my assignment for graphic communication course. i have to observe and sketch through my motor drawing techniques so it came straight through my mind and my eyes. this is a plant that i zoomed and sketch somewhere near the faculty. i think its not that nice.

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ever since i stopped painting and coloring the last time i did my artwork i feel im in despondency and hopelessness, i can feel like something is going wrong from the system. now, since my dormant aptitude has been sleeping long enough as waiting for the sun to stop shining some part of the world, i had another valuable opportunity for me to regain all those missing steps i left after i stopped being in contact with my artistic ability. im glad now i can start drawing again. i can start using partial of my brain not just to think but to live like the norm as i used to be. haggling myself with the lowest concession of my priceless endowment. although, its been hard at times to live with your own self with nobody's around to facilitate you out with things but what motivate you the most is the least favorable stuffs you would want to think. like people around you started to hated you with preposterous reasons or like how people treated you differently not like what you've expected. im happy now just to be clear-cut with the reality, but what i feel is what i observe through my surrounding situation. hoping that everything is going to go as horizontal or as smooth as it can be so i can live in with another absurd and in an unthinkable heaven somewhere within. x

another reasons

here goes for another reason to kept me away from the wearisome and mind-numbing tome that i have to study. it is been an indistinctly vague weeks and more nebulous days i'm going through here. seconds just turned into hours, hours turned into days, and now days are skipping it ways all the way to weeks that i can literally let my jaw dropped over the ever so prompting and rapid time it's been. weekdays been such a torment for me especially i have to walk all the way to go to the lecture halls. despite all my money spent out almost to bullshits that i have to endow on, each edges on my body is screaming loudly asking for help and needing a good nice break for them to be well functioned again. i am also predominantly have sensing im loosing my ability to write and to eloquent and lucid my ever so fluent ideas and over-flowing words that always bursts into small tiny particle that bring nearly lively sensation on it. this is not happening.

what now became my recent predicament here isn't make sense at all. i feel like im under high pressure like let yourself be autoclaved with unutterable force of pressure. you feel like total freedom is coming to your way and it just turn out to be a major tussle between you and your goal being here. you can almost do anything with everything you want here. i feel like im in total hassle because im not in under high pressure of my study. taking all odds to put this puzzles in its places and i would rationally say this maybe because it still too early to feel the pressure of studying here. either because my course is slightly different than other of the majority students here or maybe because its me being all too melodramatic with no reasonable basis to worry with.

i need something to stimulate my brain.

i desperately need something to keep me away from this "distraction" when there were really nothing actually.

i cant penetrate my drive to be more focus with my original aspiration being here at the first place.

i cant bear losing something that used to be my "everything" anymore. my over-tiredness and my laziness are way too absurd to fling that it actually been blending itself with my daily random activity in that day. x

getting used with this

today is almost fully the second week I'm here, been pretty busy with schedules and revision. been pretty busy with hang out in the middle of the night and eating with tonnes of fats and carbs and spent least the time with reading books. earlier when i came here i have determined to never put random things came into my brain and pretty much contaminate it but now thing's once again happens the other way around. surprisingly im homesick. missed my family especially now that they're preoccupied arranging and organizing my sister's reception event back in sabah. im sure they're missing my present there too since im the light of the house. as much fun as i had here, with so many friends, so many that i kinda forgot some of their names, funny. as much freedom i had that i never have before. as much as i feel like this is the real world that i want to live in but i still feel the emptiness around me. seriously. kinda upsetting when i put it this way but this is what pretty much going on in me now. personalities and attitudes started to shone in each and every individuals here, im getting used with people with fake masked faced but thank heaven i haven't stumbled or clashed with any of these kinda people.

anyways, been babbling about shits around me, lets talk about the main reason i came here. my study. it's been a week already that the classes started, im taking general physic and chemistry 1 , geometry and trigo, environmental studies, graphic communication, microeconomics, and art for my first semester. and for my second semester will be divided into different segregated courses such as architectural, quantity surveying, building surveying or real estate management. from the reference book, i've been noticed that the only way for me to get a chance taking architecture course in semester 2 is getting a 4.00 CGPA. i wont promise to myself for anything that's going to happen but i can be sure that i will do my hardest and work triple more harder to get into that phase. insyaallah.

feeling safe a bit here since i've found few of sabahan's community. they're totally blew my stomach the hell out of me. gives me a chilling tickling feeling everytime im surrounded by these good people.

oh my room? its big, i guess but smaller than my room back in sabah but still big enough for me alone though. going ahead with books, i've bought several text books. i heard that my course doesn't really need a book because notes will be given by lecturers but just tryna feel safe.

i can say that the food here is ate-able, not harmful but yet still can fill my growling starved empty tummy every-time im hungry.

all in all, i would give thumbs up with everything here because so far i still couldn't see the bad side of the place. and hopefully i wont. today i'll be going to unikl with other sabahan friends, we've been planning to go out to town today but since some of us is going somewhere else, its better for us to go all together. atleast it's free transportation after all. for now, this is the only few updates i can give. think there will be lots more so i'll keep my blog posted. i hope families doing fine back there, i missed you people. im doing fine here don't worry,take care ya'll. adios!