So it's all messed up now and I'm facing against my life by myself

Please god, for once, I want to feel free to do anything I want even though if it's wrong. For once, I want to break free and live the life that a person at my age should be living. I love this quote saying,"If you don't do foolish things while you're young, you don't have anything to smile about when you're old" I feel like my life have missed off by some beats. I'm off track a bit cause I haven't been myself in this entire whole time. But I just couldn't be myself with the kind of environment I'm living in here, it is just all too serious and shit. Fuck.