I'm losing it, losing it

Hello, let me introduce ya'll to my new baby on board! I bought a seconhand-ed Praktica super TL from a friend of mine. I'm not sure why exactly I decided on buying a film camera but I feel that, I've tried on Digital SLR and a lomo cam, why not to try a new thing like a film camera. I've seen the pictures this baby can produced and it's pretty cool in my taste. I'm on my first roll of film now, so I'm so excited how the result would be after I finished it :D

Who's your Daddy?

We are the TnTee :D

And this is Nancy, I uploaded this pic cause it's so nice :D

Anyways, part of my time recently has been totally occupied by lots of activities. Exclusive of some from my studio assignments and classes, I've been part of the TnTee group of all this while. The idea behind this company basically just selling shirts and I became one of the designers. I mean, how awesome can it be if you see people around you are wearing the shirts that you've designed, that feeling of pleasure and satisfaction just filled your body entirely with it.

And the selling went great, we were on sales during FESKUM (Festival Konvokesyen Universiti Malaya) and that was our first official shirt selling experience. All I can ever say is, we're learning from scratch so, things would be better next time in terms of the management. In terms of the selling, we did great on that :)

Mind-fucked

Vain

One of the college drama team cast during Minggu Haluansiswa 2011/2012 (Orientation Week)

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Hi, life's been such a fuss lately. I haven't been blogging since Raya season about a month ago, that's sure a long time to count right. Not that I don't want to squeeze in any free time to blog but I just don't have any. So far, the new college I'm staying is considerably okay, I don't want to complain. I have two roomates now, they're also okay, I don't want to complain. Nothing much to write about.

And my new course, Urban and Regional Planning is also okay. Still have to go through some hardcore designing process so I'm not entirely in an utter boredom learning that course so far.

I want to get out and take pictures. I'm just too stressed out with everything right now. I'm too busy with my college activities, my studio assignments just can never learn how to stop torturing me. Being a Degree student isn't that easy compared to be a pre-Uni student. You need to be active in all sorts of association in order to keep yourself active and be able to stay in the same college for the next semester. And my study haven't started that much yet, which sucks alot. Cause I want to study, for now, as long as this motivation to do so still kicks in but when I start to run out my motivation juice, I'm doomed.

I. JUST. WANT. TO. FEEL. FREE. AND. TAKE. LOTSA. PICTURES :(

Oh Mr. Raya!

Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir dan Batin dari kami sekeluarga :) Have a fun celebration readers!

Everytime I sweats,it feels like a drop of ocean waves coming down on my face

Look what a dawn artificial light shadows from outside of my house could offer you. A magical,impossible image

Knowing that Bon Iver and St. Iver's song instrumenting through my ear tubes, legs spread out like a pregnant woman in labor, and everytime I sweats, it feels like a drop of ocean waves running down my face, I just knew that this dreamy graceful imagery I'm having is just earthly, terrestrial moving thing I could only have in vague and uncertain time in my life. Wish it wouldn't stop, I wish it could have an unforeseeable long journey that can out-stretched this ever growing imagination, only rapidly emergent more, refuse to when it would stop. I just wished that sometimes...the good times would never end, the happily-ever-after day couldn't see an unsettling departure, but life happens.

Sun and fun II

A special caption for this pic would be "A special photo"

:D The last time we're going out before I'm going back to KL. sobs

It feels like an oven in my room now

Perhaps the same temperature as the earth core. lol

5 things that popped in my head when I mention winter are...

Cold, Sex, Runaway, Love, You

26/8/2011

one,two, ... *snapped* three. after the show, happy nonetheless exhausted

my first attend of a theater show titled "Short Eyes"

Zahiril Adzim (If you don't know him, google him)

As I am trying to catch a sleep, I ran across these pictures in one of my random picture folders, it instantly splashed me an absolute fresh memory on that happy night we (Me Ac Amal Oney) all had that day. Amal brought us by her car to the Actor's Studio in Pavilion KL building, if I'm not mistaken and the building on the roof-top was breath-taking that I need minutes to indulge the sceneric moment (as usual of my in-awe moment). And then, she droved us all the way to Danau Kota to go for a late night look-around in Uptown markets. It was a blast :)

What's not to be love?

It takes a while for me to seriously consider this public humiliation I'm about to show you, my desire of doing lomography had never been more than this, considering this is my...second film of trying. It's supposedly give me a descent,experimenting 36 shots in that roll that I've imported from Hong Kong but as you see, only 9 appears to be developed fine. It's good enough to consider as pictures compared to the ones that don't worked out and never even existed at all. Me and exposed-photo-shots are like arch enemies between the vampire coven and the werewolves clan in Twilight saga, they sorta don't work out in one way but always find themselves a way of failing with each others benefits.

I need to learn more and more. And for me, the third time's a charm right? I bought two films, this and another one that I'm about to use. I will consider to make a useful benefit out of a handle-with-care advice this time. NO MORE UNDERLIGHT PHOTO SNAPS AND ONLY SUNLIGHT EXPOSURE so that I wont waste another precious film in trial. Wish me luck!

Sighs

This is what a broken lens looks like and I swear I want to auction this to anybody that would buy and fix it themselves. Planning to buy a new one when I get back to KL.

And oh man! This pic was taken a long time ago, I this this was still in the early days in UM, I miss my student card, whoever saw and stole my wallet in Shah Alam and took everything inside away, well, FUCK YOU BASTARD

Not as good as what rough sex feels like

"O here will I set up my everlasting rest and shake the yoke of inauspicious stars from the world-wearied flesh. Eyes, look your last. Arms, take your last embrace! And, lips, O you, the doors of breath, seal with a righteous kiss a dateless bargain to engrossing death!"-Shakespeare

My second roll of film results

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I'd probably be the world worst writer to ever put that title in my blog but I have nothing in mind now except, yes, knowing I'll be leaving this ever growing lair of mine or so called a room, no, I don't want to. In a happy state, that's all I can say, I mean, everyone around me knows what they want and they get it, like my father who always wanted to renovate this tiny space of ours we all lived together and now, it's fully renovated and function better as our house, or like my eldest sister, Diwi, who happens to have her own baby,and maybe my youngest big sis, Eliza, who is now planning to get into a marriage life, life's a miracle, and me, likewise, whom able to witness all this humbling situations, it's dreamy almost, so, I am happy.

But like it's always do, farewell come on strike again, It's childish really to even have this as my thought but I don't want to leave, especially leaving my family, I want to stay.

Regret. That's my only explanation towards my decision of studying in peninsular. Feeling like you don't get sober up after you get drunk, you can only imagine.

Seconds turning to minutes, minutes to hours, hours to more hours and now it's days, days that are less that a fortnight, I'll no longer be at home. Will head back to KL to continue my study, that seems to never stop.

Oh also, by the way, I've decided, like finally, I wont be appealing to change course in UM. I don't see the point of changing it anymore, I can almost swear my head's not even up to that course, just need to follow what's served to me now. Maybe it's the best to stay at my current major. It's all like a hot mess.

Hi guys! Zomg, very excited to upload my first video post, and don't mind the lighting, the shaking, the unprepared script lines, I just did this randomly when Mika and his mom stepped in my house last night and I was jumping up and down joyously when I saw the little dude at home.

This is a sincere publication of me, a cell phone quality, so lame. And also don't mind my squeaking voice when I pronounced Mika's name, he just makes me happy all the time. And I cut my hair short also!

Enjoy enjoy enjoy. It's Mika and her mother! :D

Her voice just haunt me good

It grows big in me slowly

Penetrate me with this.

What? Study again? Fuck this.