drop dead saliva

there was one evening mom came back from work and as you might expect, mommy always brought goodies from workplace. at first i wasn't surprise about what's on her hand but i saw a plastic swinging full of covered and boxed food. it wasn't much of a food, more like cakes. lots of them. no actually only three. then i quickly take every cake there were in the plastic and immediately i tried it and there is no other perfect time compared during that time because i was ravenous, famished, hungry, starrrvvinnggg. god oh lord, how amazing could it be that i just died with all of this savoriness of scrumptious delectable spongy cakes, it took me nearly to heaven when it first laid on my tasted bud. so i told mom that it taste like 5-star and mom glad im happy with it. recently I've found new obsession on food. real food or junkies, doesn't matter. like there was once in a mamak restaurant around lintas, I ate mee goreng mamak and tasted my sister's nasi briyani ayam goreng. staggeringly I actually finished everything. I've found my inner canibal in me. alas, it is just that i got hungry so fast yet full so fast as well. unfair. anyways, I'm off to more food-hunting.

x

bee is for bokeh

look it danced

p a r a d i g m

this is my wishes. i have kept some sentiments in myself, holding for a long time that it plainly aching inside me. at first it is just ridiculous to even take a moment thinking about this but really its kinda inspirational. more or less, i think i grew up now. iv grown to a better person i guess. a different better person. i just could give some gratified thanks to few people that have been trying to ruined and screw my life off. really, this couldn't get anymore weirder and eerie. i know that it is not just me but in fact everyone has their one someones that hated or envious to us. i think this proportion of persons really one of the reasons why i can developed or changed.

although this is already absurd clunt things im talking about is pretty displeasing but iv always wanted to spilled this out. in some ways. any ways. im a man, i have no fear. more importantly, i have no one that i could marque as my adversary or enemy. or either i dont know any of them. but if its not because of these spiteful, little did i know they've helped me to prove to them and the world that i shouldn't be relinquish to myself and my life. worst thing is, i think i have no reason to think about this because i really proved them that i am better. so to anyone that is "inlove" detestation me or otherwise, think again you disgust the wrong person.

morph immature

downhill dunhill

yet its another night of satisfactory and contentment. haven't heard of such wide fucking boredom nocturnal techniques of taking such breath-taking photographs could be this really chilling goosebumps reaction. feels like finally a volcano erupt with its gorgeous and dazzling lava volcanic emission. iv heard of new ways to upgrade, to reinventing my photography skills. i thought it was only some click of buttons in the editor would create conspicuous snaps, but no. i know it seems so out of season about photo-taking madness trend have been passed over last inclination but it doesn't work that way. this is almost like orgasm in the backseat. it is magical.

one thing i learn of course its not easy to take complex and multifarious shots let alone taking just simple-one-subject shot. i want more outing. more experiments. more trialling. it was inadequate. though iv attempted the new ways called,bokeh but still perceptibly im not good enough to take memorable moment shots. ley asked me to chill but its not the same sensation when you cant solve a linear equation but you still can work more on it, this is like, you hafta proficient in this in order to take your desired photographs. but more outing would help.

faves

hey, sold sister

so the other day of the weekend was just another wack day filled with boredom and tedious activities. was empty with plans so just went out with families. i feel so pity to my sister because she just totally left her bank empty with jizzles because she bought a car. see how she looked like when she have nothing to lose anymore, like someone literally desperate for foods haha.. joking.. congratulations for the new car sis!

adios!

latest

Asalamualaikum semua
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x

short-term memories

Have you ever dreamt about reaching a rainbow's end? Have you ever feel how cool it is to know that heaven knows our existence. It is hard when you have an anxiety in you that literally unexplainable and unutterable to understands. It's hard because I have it in me now, I cant be with someone so long and having precious time together without loving that person. When I started to stare at your eyes on how would it blinked every seconds or your lips moving uttering those beautiful meaning of the words you're saying, and If i kept convincing myself that I am not fallen in love with that person, means I actually took a step forward in terms of how i felt to that person.

But..

How torturous, agonizing and excruciating would it be when you can only tell these to yourself without that person knowing the real thing going on in you. It's like you want to scream from the bottom of your pie hole and shout that person's name how much you love them. Because that person doesn't have the same feeling that you have toward them.

It's like taking all actions all over again or analogous with the state of putting yourself in high schools again but you are actually already graduated. It's so beautiful and mesmerizing to say in words how deeply you're into that person but the only person that can hear that is only yourself.

I have no doubt I'm in this achingly throbbing situation. I'm into someone but I cant figured out thoughts from myself to articulate it in sensationally numbing words.

This is to you..

I have hundreds of questions in me but probably only few or a couple can only be answered.

I can say that when I'm thinking about someone else and have the moments for myself, I will think more profound about that person. That's when I will started to have subdivided chapters in the episodes and considering and imagining about how would us be in good or bad certainty of circumstances. It is when I will go to each tunnel of assessment and started to analysis you in thorough details. How I would be sad and agony with you and vice versa. I'm going to smile for myself when I started to think about happy things about/that I have with you. It's so blissful even to only put it in silence distracting utterance.

I don't know the meaning of suffers when you're beside me. I don't understand the sentence of "endless outpouring love" when you're in front of me. I feel like I can envisage and visualize myself in a mall filled with amazing shopping stores but at the end of the place would have an oceanfront view that just put the icing on the luscious, delectable, mouth-watering cake. I can work on my system for hours and hours in the day when I'm with you because I was full with curiosity about your whole adventurous life stories. As bad as it sounds, I will laughs to all your impractical offensive jokes just because I know It would makes you happy. I don't know what is the meaning of cares when I'm with you.

YOU COMPLETE MY PUZZLE

I'm sorry because you can't help me in this situation.

But here goes for another heart-rending and poignant separation.

I love you

x

fresh new stop

last Saturday night was a night with an experienced of just a fucking holy of shit-gruesome-ness would skilled. i had a freaking blast with ma girls. went out to upperstar as always. trying more new stuffs. more pop of smoke. both of these chicks are my totally new addictions. we left some of the drinks for the next outs & abouts. finally im tasting "real" drinks. i didnt bring along my slr cz it was at night so i more preferably not to risk it with fucking a pilfer. i took some photoshots with camera phone, so sorry. total explosion!

long island iced tea yuck

soon will be changing my url to --> http://urbanlacquer.blogspot.com/

distracting utterance

just like what people said, once you've killed the cow, you gotta make a burger

smells like turpentine, taste like dishwater

-vodka!

its your birthday!

surprise!

happy sweet eighteenth my dawg! you have the hugest gratitude and luck from me and your loved ones, syahirah and fatheen. always be in our hearts. love. x

(missing:fatheen,hockey outing)

here you go nini

sorry nini, my design's suck so bad

muni-rarah

went out & abouts with her. vigilant driver indeed. fun! x