downhill dunhill

yet its another night of satisfactory and contentment. haven't heard of such wide fucking boredom nocturnal techniques of taking such breath-taking photographs could be this really chilling goosebumps reaction. feels like finally a volcano erupt with its gorgeous and dazzling lava volcanic emission. iv heard of new ways to upgrade, to reinventing my photography skills. i thought it was only some click of buttons in the editor would create conspicuous snaps, but no. i know it seems so out of season about photo-taking madness trend have been passed over last inclination but it doesn't work that way. this is almost like orgasm in the backseat. it is magical.

one thing i learn of course its not easy to take complex and multifarious shots let alone taking just simple-one-subject shot. i want more outing. more experiments. more trialling. it was inadequate. though iv attempted the new ways called,bokeh but still perceptibly im not good enough to take memorable moment shots. ley asked me to chill but its not the same sensation when you cant solve a linear equation but you still can work more on it, this is like, you hafta proficient in this in order to take your desired photographs. but more outing would help.

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hey, sold sister

so the other day of the weekend was just another wack day filled with boredom and tedious activities. was empty with plans so just went out with families. i feel so pity to my sister because she just totally left her bank empty with jizzles because she bought a car. see how she looked like when she have nothing to lose anymore, like someone literally desperate for foods haha.. joking.. congratulations for the new car sis!

adios!

latest

Asalamualaikum semua
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x

short-term memories

Have you ever dreamt about reaching a rainbow's end? Have you ever feel how cool it is to know that heaven knows our existence. It is hard when you have an anxiety in you that literally unexplainable and unutterable to understands. It's hard because I have it in me now, I cant be with someone so long and having precious time together without loving that person. When I started to stare at your eyes on how would it blinked every seconds or your lips moving uttering those beautiful meaning of the words you're saying, and If i kept convincing myself that I am not fallen in love with that person, means I actually took a step forward in terms of how i felt to that person.

But..

How torturous, agonizing and excruciating would it be when you can only tell these to yourself without that person knowing the real thing going on in you. It's like you want to scream from the bottom of your pie hole and shout that person's name how much you love them. Because that person doesn't have the same feeling that you have toward them.

It's like taking all actions all over again or analogous with the state of putting yourself in high schools again but you are actually already graduated. It's so beautiful and mesmerizing to say in words how deeply you're into that person but the only person that can hear that is only yourself.

I have no doubt I'm in this achingly throbbing situation. I'm into someone but I cant figured out thoughts from myself to articulate it in sensationally numbing words.

This is to you..

I have hundreds of questions in me but probably only few or a couple can only be answered.

I can say that when I'm thinking about someone else and have the moments for myself, I will think more profound about that person. That's when I will started to have subdivided chapters in the episodes and considering and imagining about how would us be in good or bad certainty of circumstances. It is when I will go to each tunnel of assessment and started to analysis you in thorough details. How I would be sad and agony with you and vice versa. I'm going to smile for myself when I started to think about happy things about/that I have with you. It's so blissful even to only put it in silence distracting utterance.

I don't know the meaning of suffers when you're beside me. I don't understand the sentence of "endless outpouring love" when you're in front of me. I feel like I can envisage and visualize myself in a mall filled with amazing shopping stores but at the end of the place would have an oceanfront view that just put the icing on the luscious, delectable, mouth-watering cake. I can work on my system for hours and hours in the day when I'm with you because I was full with curiosity about your whole adventurous life stories. As bad as it sounds, I will laughs to all your impractical offensive jokes just because I know It would makes you happy. I don't know what is the meaning of cares when I'm with you.

YOU COMPLETE MY PUZZLE

I'm sorry because you can't help me in this situation.

But here goes for another heart-rending and poignant separation.

I love you

x

fresh new stop

last Saturday night was a night with an experienced of just a fucking holy of shit-gruesome-ness would skilled. i had a freaking blast with ma girls. went out to upperstar as always. trying more new stuffs. more pop of smoke. both of these chicks are my totally new addictions. we left some of the drinks for the next outs & abouts. finally im tasting "real" drinks. i didnt bring along my slr cz it was at night so i more preferably not to risk it with fucking a pilfer. i took some photoshots with camera phone, so sorry. total explosion!

long island iced tea yuck

soon will be changing my url to --> http://urbanlacquer.blogspot.com/

distracting utterance

just like what people said, once you've killed the cow, you gotta make a burger

smells like turpentine, taste like dishwater

-vodka!

its your birthday!

surprise!

happy sweet eighteenth my dawg! you have the hugest gratitude and luck from me and your loved ones, syahirah and fatheen. always be in our hearts. love. x

(missing:fatheen,hockey outing)

here you go nini

sorry nini, my design's suck so bad

muni-rarah

went out & abouts with her. vigilant driver indeed. fun! x

Prepared to be awestrucked

I didn't see this was coming but what I'm sure now is the most anticipated and prone movie, The Lovely Bones directed by Peter Jackson will not thwart you peeps. I have already read the book and it was moving and compelling with its luminous constructed storyboard. This was a story about a teenage girl that has been raped and slaughtered by a man or more to a perfect stranger guy that were an impostor and a charlatan neighbor to her family. The meager and pitiable little girl, Susie Salmon attempted to get in touch with her family through a place called In-between. Tormenting herself with the unsurpassed and incomparable agony, the only thing she could do is watching the slaughterer running off from the truth from her family. Look how love story, unforgettable incidents and heart-pumping actions happened in this movie. Every scenes in this movie connected so achingly exploratory and audacious. But be sure to yourself, expect the unexpected from this movie because it might moved your seats around. Enjoy.

Rate: 10/10 rating
Book: By Alice Sebold
Directed: By Peter Jackson

gagaphobic

wonder how her closet really looked like.seesh

you are my earth

So this is another random blunt post, I have something in my mind but I couldn't quite catch that up. I feel something tingling in me but for the first time I cant express it through typed words. It was probably stuffs that Ive been thinking for all this moment but it was probably not.

I think, Im doing the right thing with the right ways. But maybe it's too right on the track, that it somewhat looked so wrong. From this moments, I've been analyzing my life thoroughly. I cannot be greedy in my life. I cannot show no gratitude to my life especially on how its been treating me well lately.

I can pretty much clearly would say that my life now has one person that could ever woke me up from my heavy sleep early in dawn. Only one person that could ever asked me to eat more whenever that I am full. Only one person that could ever stopped the ticking sound of the clock whenever she cried. Only one person that could pull me off from my immorality side of myself. Most importantly, only one person cares that much about how's my family been doing everyday.

I could say I am the luckiest man on earth to ever have her in my ever so fastidious life. It's like she was the ocean and I'm the land and we're both collide to befall a perfect world. It's almost like she was the integration and I was the differentiation, and how faultlessly allied we were connected to each other. Albeit, I cant actually made up my mind too fast because we were too soon too good to be true. But she is special to me. Special like a delicate fragile red rose that needed a chary indulge to be taken care of. I love her from the bottom of my empathy. I couldn't envision any other girl that can be that amusing.


She makes my day, she talked when I'm silent. She told me how outlandish her dream was to ever saw me in a superman suit. It's uproarious. She try so hard to never wound me in anyway. It's so improbable to know how eccentric it is that we had a beautiful relationship even through the talking voices on the phone.

I felt repentant to her because in somewhat crate I wasn't endeavor that much to her. I still couldn't show how really I am into her. It is almost like you were one inch to blow off your mind because you were so enraged that you can't see her face everyday. She defined a true definition of a woman. I love her like I never love on a person before. I am thanking her by giving me the answer of true love in anyway. I love you baby. Will never lose you. x

Little Quotations

Ni De Xie Wo De Xin Cong Ni Shi Wo De Wei Gi De Ren Anis

(you are the only one in my heart anis)

x

her most memorable photographs

azrina & shafuan.
may always be blessed and happy forevermore

so camera phone really does suck

Sometimes I feel like my journey of life is just another purpose of why I shouldn't be continue surviving, everything sometimes just started with failure and stoppage. I'm dealing with everything in my life now like literally, some things remained unchanged but most things are new-fangled to me.

After the spm result come up, I'm broke down to so many subdivided situation. At first I made up to my mine on what will I seize in university/college/etc. But now I'm down to zero, my future became blurry. Again. At first my choice was taking architecture course but my parents support me to take accounting course, yet my sister gave me so many ideas and opinion. I'm confused.

Let see, I love maths. In fact, that's the only matter that makes me twitchy and all, so I guess accounting would be full of em. At another plane, my heart says that architecture is so thrilling and that catches my eyes. I'm full of curiosity. Well, architecture it is I guess.

Yet most probably one of my wished was to continue in peninsular, selangor, kl, doesnt matter, as long as im near to my baby. Anis, I promise to you that you're not going to be the reason why I studied in semenanjung even if I did. (i'll try). She ever told me that.."if you want to continues you study, dont ever make me as the reason you prolong. It's your future. Don't expect too much from me. I don't want to make you sad, I don't want to disappoint you."..

It's so bizarre how obsessed I am to her. When I took some moments to myself while coffee on my side and clouds-view on top of my head, spying on what will the sun does everyday, so completely ridiculous, I have thought about why am I so assessment about our relationship. Maybe this was the real love that Romeo&Juliet had on their own, but still I wasn't feeling fully hundred percent. She makes me happy. She makes me laughed like I never laughed before. I was laughing squeakily when we were on the phone. That is an indication of a good relationship, right? yes I hope so.

Such an entirety of frustration to me is that i get a fucking a- for my english and malay language in my spm result, I cried but no one else knew about that. To really put fuels on fire is that when I told my teacher about how I did in my result. She was devastated that all her subjects didn't came up to her expectations. I felt sorry for her but that was my best shot. But on the bright side? I only get A's and B's which was an inclusive idiotic.

After this I have plenty more things to be done, scholarships, reconsidering about getting a half-time job, classes, applications, offers, and etc. Well at least I have something to work on with my day offs. For now,adios.

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