Saturday, January 29, 2011
KLIA (f*king) express
so basically the Hols are starting already!
first, my class has finally ended for now to allow the holiday kicks in its wicked balls.
second, we as in me,ac,amal,mai and oney was planning about having a trip after we finished our exam, literally right after exam to where? PULAU TIOMANNNNNNNNNNNN. fuck yeah we're awesome! all the rough planning and thoughts are still under brainstorms, so we need to come up each with our own proposal to present it to each other about it, to have you know, official plan about it. YEAH IM FUCKING EXCITED!
third, what a coincidence! third, damn, 3 has to be my fave number now, my THIRRDDD assignment for basic design basically got an A, not that i want to boast or anything but i am HAPPPYYYY AND RELIEVEEEDD abt it cs i finally got an A for something and they really liked it, i drew an Indian woman and we gotta do all the relief techniques and whatever, i'll post the picture of the painting later and they liked my presentation, the lecturers liked how my Eng was nice and fluent.
fourth, we had our little last reunion before holiday in Wendy's just now although Ac and Mai couldn't make it, they had their time up pretty fast here so it was only left me,Oney (and her bf) and Amal.
all in all, i had a blast closuring day before i had my own holiday. i have been working on plans and whatever to fill up this coming AWESOME hols, so can't wait to do it! so later! :)
Thursday, January 27, 2011
Noob
oh i do actually, about home. im a few more days left before flying back home. im freakin excited since i can forget about the shit im dealing here whatsoever for a little while. 1o days without kl somehow relieved my over drive senses, i don't even know what that means. i can't bear myself without losing my sanity here, i've been fucking stoke in kl! in this shitty place we call University! i hate all the works given by our lecturers, i hate all the assignments, giving me headache continuously! god i hate studying all and all! but i guess nobody can understand me with that right!
i am thinking of vlogging, you know that new thing where people update their life in youtube by uploading their personal funny videos they've recorded themselves, no? i know its not new so thats why im about to call myself a fucking Noob again. anyways, yeah thinking of doing that. but i don't have any good quality cameras to record my video, well im gona try at least do one video i promise! haha. i really need to see myself just out there spilling about my shitty life even though nobody wants to hear it except for myself.
& yeah thats pretty much it, i can't believe i did more than 20 posts within this month alone. that means im fucking bored with my life but i should think about people in Africa more and take my words back!
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
i am distant by a few more days of Holiday
let us talk about exams, today is Wednesday, making it the third day of exam out four day which is the last day is tomorrow. yay! first day was Phy&Chem 2 Paper and Macroeconomics, nothing surprised me with the questions except the awkward moment i got,the first time i've laid my eyes on the first question in each paper. bummer! and second day was ruined by Stats&Probability.
so far i really have nothing much to say about it, yeah been pretty difficult to answer it well but whatever, that's just how i felt throughout all the exams here. doesn't give a damn! either A's or likewise,i'll stil be feeling neutral about the exams.
and like most pathetic weeks i have consumed in my life throughout the 2nd sem, this week have no exception BS and there's class on Sat. major bummer! cannot ask for anymore miseries than this, i've been having alot less talk than i could imagine cs my head isn't around anymore,been keeping thinking of home and at another point i've become obsessed of going home.i can't wait to meet tv,families,home-made cooks,MY ONE AND ONLY BED,friends, nothing but sweet mother fugger Reunion. til now, bye!
Thursday, January 20, 2011
as we age
as i tried to sleep after the day trails off to an end, i re-captured the blissful moments when i was with my family. from that moment, i really shouldn't be even trying to sleep cs whenever i think of them, i'l either smile or cry (of happiness). but this time i cried. i miss them so badly, this anticipation of going back home is wildy alluring toward my senses and making my brain stop functioning well.
then again i remembered my preggar sister, Diwi whom is a few more months away before welcoming a brand new 3rd generation of our family. then, i have magically seen the faces of my parents. filled with ease, relieved and somewhat happy and just not any words can become a comparison.
then, i was thinking, how can time passes by so fast. the last thing i remembered when i was a little kid, running around under my dad's pants, pushing my neighbour's shoulder one another, taking bath together outside of the house, and now i am looking down to my dad, talking as if i am a genetically grown human being compared to my dad. i hate to see bad surprises coming out from my parents faces, that is wrinkles. i am at my happiest to see laugh lines grows like mushroom plant instead.
everytime i go back and finally able to see them and hold their head on my palm gives me such awakening experience on how i should take life more meaningful. i love my parents uncomparably as how much i love all my siblings are. they are basically my life, take one of them away, and you'll see me dying, literally.
im not even sure, why suddenly the matter of family appeared in my head but it has gave me an impact on how i should learn more and appreciate more on basically everything. when i rolled myself to see me doing this all, i was hoping to have a gun by my side and burst my brain out from it, i don't come here just to please whoever i think i should, i come here to please them, my families, to help them, my families. as much ignorance or whatever you call it i have put to the worthless life i've gave here, i am still somehow fragile inside and optimistic within.
i wish for a truthful wake up call would wake me up from this uneasy disturbance so that i could keep that in my mind, keep my family in my mind, all the time.
Monday, January 17, 2011
today in chemistry class
Saturday, January 15, 2011
She & Him
Friday, January 14, 2011
okay i can't come up with a title
anyhow, i promised too many things already, i've mentioned something about posting a list on what i wana do after i've finished my foundation year but i still haven't done it yet, so before i am about to promise anything else, i want to deal with this one first.
to be quite frank,i haven't decide on what shall i be doing during the long break, perhaps only a few stuffs i am planning to do besides eat,sleep,and tv, GOD I MISS TV namely, attending Art class to my previous art teacher, or probably making some paintings (?) or getta part time job because i'm trying to save up some money to get my teeth a braces. wouldn't it be fun!
i know right, that's maybe alot to juggle, i guess i just have to see how things will go later. so whatever, my aim now is to get a full 4.00 for this sem. why am i jumping topics,i dont even know why, seesh. it'll be hard but im sure nothing is impossible. haha, weeeiiirrdd. because Architecture is not an easy course, or i'll be ended dumped in other faculties. so i better swot up those books and start studying! later. ok, im insane
blame my pen
individualistic, idiosyncratic
anyway, i'm here gladly would like to flag about good news i've received quite sometime days ago about my muet result. i had finally witnessed the scores i got, so every questions sorta answered why i got lower band in it.
it's because of my Reading paper, i didn't even achieved more than half of the score, that's why. but the rest of the paper, i executed quite well, in my opinion. such as my writing paper, i got 50+/90, and my listening 39/48, and speaking 35+/45, generally,i am only 1 score away from getting band 4. and i could've imagine if i get 90 for reading like Ac did, i already have band 5 at hand.
but regardless that the issue had already past and happened, atleast now i am relieved that i am not actually a modest user. perhaps only more of a less fortunate in answering multiple choices, too bad. wish i could be aware of it before but drop it now!
so, i have only a week or so to study for my 2nd sem midterm exam. i am quite butterflied about it cs now i know how the "game is actually played". so i am prepared, physically, and partially for mentally. let's just hope for the best.
and it's raining now, so cold and breezy. my room cannot be anymore colder than now. listening to Grouper, Juana Molina, Coldplay, Emilie Simon, 1 Ghost's songs are the best thing can ever happen to me in such nice weather.
let me sleep in with all the illuminate nimbleness and hopeful to refresh my mind and my body, ready to procrastinate no more and come with inspiration overflow.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Saturday, January 8, 2011
what u kol dis special entry? i just rojak only wattt
anyways, dia jadi rojak sikit bila aku tulis panjang2 nanti, so kepada siapa profesor/pakar/taik/etc english suma tu, makanla kasut aku kalau kamu nda suka bahasa rojak aku, pergi mampus! kalau nda paham juga (?) pergilah anda mampus atau mati, secara literal okay. baku sudah tu, klo stil mcm blur2. mmg muka mcm taiklah kau tu!
so dilema atau sakit hati apa seja kau mau panggil pasal result muet memang habislah sudah,nda kan aku mau emo-emo memanjang kan pasal muet ja, agak ah tp still aku mcm nda ble lupa lah psl benda alah tu. bukan apa tapi aku pun bukan mau ckp apa, kira kena trained la ba juga oleh bapa mama ckp orang putih diruma kan, skali tinguk dapat juga rendah, nda juga rendah la, ada juga org terer ak dengar sendiri dia bilang, dia dpt band 3.
tapi benda paling sweet aku pernah dengar pasal muet result ni dari mulut Mariah Bt Othman, ex tutorial mate AB3. bukan sweet apa jgn salah paham ah tp dia bilanglah, approach aku, and cakap mcm ni..
Mariah : fendi,kenapa u dpt band 3?
aku : hah? mana u tau? (alamak malu bodoh org tau,tapi cover2 la kan). hahh hehe,ntah la.bukan rezeki kot.
Mariah : i pun mcm heran why u get band 3. cam its u man!
aku : u dpt berapa?
Mariah : i dapat band 3 juga (muka sedih tak ble blah)
aku : (memang tekejut pun ok) what? seriously? omaigud, u. i tak caya la.
Mariah : u lagilah i tak caya dpt band 3! i mean,u lg terer kot. apa yg u mistake..
aku : ntah lah,mmg english i rendah kot. i mean, its sorta all clear now kan,ckp bagus mcmana pun tp klo muet xiktiraf, kau mmg bodoh la rsanya.
ok so on and so forth, ak rsa legalah yg bukan sorang ja mengharap ak dpt band tinggi. ak bsyukur ada kwn2 sabah ak yg appreciate tenaga usaha ak setenga mati mau ckp eng,try jd bagus tu, adala juga.. untuk seseorang tu,bakal amik muet dis year. chillax. u'll do better kiddo! tambah2 klo ko bagi ak nasihat dlm english, mmg A la ak bagi. tbaik bahasa kau. so jgnlah heran klo ko dpt band 6 ok? syg kau!
anyways, tu ja la ak mau ckp. teda pa2 lagi mau difikirkan.
ohya, aku ada jugalah makan. even though abit forced haha. serius teda selera.
untuk sekarang ni, mmg bodoh sial babi shit smua, ak rindu rumah! kawan2 kat sabah! mmg lepas asasi, berabis la aku beronggeng sama dorang nnt. klo insyallah,masuk UM balik nx year dlm architecture. bagusla. kalau building surveyor, mmg pindah la ak. so apa2 pun korang sumeeeeeeeeeeeeee, jage diri awak begus2 yehhhhhh (attempt ak mau tulis melayu kl)
bye x
Friday, January 7, 2011
the only thing that i am thinking now is..
(sorry for the on going,non-stop entry updates people, i mean, since i've stopped using fb [temporarily], my life's been pretty empty,i have to say. fb does became part of my daily routine so i am trying to ignore this ever-so-alluring temptation to re-activate my acc, i will probably wont do it anytime soon, up untill i feel like i had enough of vigilance about it and i am controlled to myself with it. for now, lets' look at the bright side, i will post more pictures from the folders for you dear readers alright! :)
and i have prepared an unofficial list about what i am going to do with my long-break after i am finish my foundation year! so later with more updates -.-
Thursday, January 6, 2011
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how do you feel now//
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
let's talk about girlfriend
xy
although, after so much of intense pressure i've received from the result as i have mentioned earlier, someone still managed to kept me away from killing myself. someone still manage to kept me smiling. eventhough for only couple of minutes on the phone. but i'm still injured, my left hand was a bit burned by something. hm.
i have decided to deactivate my facebook acc, on purpose. for the better i guess? i mean, we all have to admit that it took almost all day for us to facebook-ing if we sum up all the total hours we've logged in to our fb acc. i guess i gotta be more real. i've seen so many adverts that tries so bad to kill this ever-so-outnumbering-social-network, so i should support it as i only be a partial part of the supportive people to stop facebook from be part of our culture.
i skipped class today, of course, but i had no sleep, of course? i guess i still can't go out and face the people that will asked me,what did i get for my muet result, or it will be another bummer day for me. about eating? i'll probably go eat or something later. alone. i like being alone for this type of moment. i know i will recover anytime soon as i always does, i mean im not an emo person to stay emo that long, so i gotta get back to normal and shape myself to be a better man! hopefully by then, i'm still alive. after all, today isn't really much of a busy day with classes. only lecture for Macro and computer lab, we don't have our chemistry experiment today, so yeay!
i would like to apologise to anyone that i have ignored last night, nothing in particular, many miscalls and IMs, i've received from numerous of friends including my families to cheer me up. basically only asking me,"why you?:/" or "chillax". it really does help guys,"thanks."
i can't really call myself entirely an idiotic because i know the boundaries of being a sad person.i won't commit a suicide, let's hope. but i still can't believe about it though. i'm actually surprised that i got band 3. i was aiming to get atleast band 4, but band 3 is like failing to me since english is my favourite language compared to malay. but i hope this is a huge slap on the face god gave me to wake up or something. so let's start a new fresh. ehe. :)
x
let me sleep for 24 hours now, i am thanking god if it's not human hours. terima kasih kepada diri aku yang bukan sahaja mendapat keputusan sem 1,3.02 tapi nampaknya, kau pilih untuk jadi sederhana dalam segalanya!
tipulah diri kau sendiri dengan berasa gembira dengan rakan kau yang mengatasi kau, sedarlah diri kau yang kau bukan seperti kau sangkakan. kau naif. kau bodoh. kau lembap. what's next in your i-want-to-be-a-failure plan besides achiving what you want which is failing? i may not be hearing myself now but i have put myself in a plan where all my life arrangement are well in order, but not anymore. it is everywhere else. handicapped. bye, x.
Sunday, January 2, 2011
yet for another night
Saturday, January 1, 2011
Urban Spit
and so there goes a year of fun and fuqery of awesomeness! never get the chance to write about "ouh what have I already done to my life throughout last year" or "lists of my achievement around year of 2010" but i will definitely find a time for it aha. Henceforth, I would just like to make it simple and light as i have already done it in the previous post with the HNY title. well, i hope those few lines of sentences of mine for New Year's closuring speech could give you a good impression about how i would do to my life in times to come with the new year, which is no difference. heh.
just for the news, guess what?! I've bought the portrait lens that i've always wanted and dreamt of (not to mention the only lens that i can afford) ah die die! thank god for my strong instinct said that i should check up on the price in The Garden,Midvalley since so far i've checked that KLCC offered the best price. although, just $1 apart from each of the places, i've grabbed it in The Garden instead which cost me blank-blank-blank. enough with the 50mm 0.45mm/1.5ft, my baby has got a brand new eyes! therefore, brand new ways of taking my photographs! i like experimenting!
anyways, someone has gladly gave me a tiny murderous surprise. it was Ac that made all the Origami pieces and have put it in my lens box. how sweet! and i've took the photos with my new baby eyes! yes,now i can call it babeyes! haha.